mekate

LENT. i always give up chocolate. this year i’m taking it one step further.

 40 days without junk food. this includes:

chocolate. sweets. cakes. biscuits - anything sugary basically. im gonna see how much this helps me on my journey. last year after a week i just stopped caring for sugary foods. no cravings at all … so here we go!

 I’m gonna also promise to blog every day with a summary of my day

Im happy at the moment.

here goes nothing!

xxx

last night i got really angry after an argument with my mum… and then i ate loads. and loads. and loads. my first real binge in a really really long time. and afterwards i felt SO sick i remembered WHY i dont do that anymore. much better to take it out on my treadmill!

So anyway i’ve realised how podgy im looking (and im feeling really fat atm aswell) and im seeing a friend for the first time in like 2 years this weekend. and its abit like “oh dearrrrrrr…!”

so im on the water alot this week, pumping some muscles, and not touching anything remotely unhealthy!!

Catch up tomorrow

xx

Well i’ve been a little snacky this afternoon. nothing to major - lots of cold cooked veggies and some chicken, an orange and a cracker lol so nothing too naughty… however im gonna go small on portions for dinner this evening

I’ve also been walking round town for ages doing some shopping and burning some calories, and i found that i can fit into size (UK) 12 jeans! which is always nice. however i’m sticking with my 14s for now.. dont want any muffin tops!

 Off to my friends house tonight  (im lucky enough to have a best friend with a pool :P)

anyway i’m gonna try and get lots of ACTUAL swimming in, as we normally just sit in the jacuzzi or sauna gossiping !!

anyway i’ll catch up with yo uall tomorrorw … lots of love!

Well, i havent been here for a really long time. I’ve had a REALLY hard time recently after the split with my boyfriend and half my friends going all crazy on me for not being around them (because hes with them) and they seeming still got annoyed even after i explained to them that i was not with them because i didn’t want to upset myself being around him!

 (btw..i had to watch harry make out with another girl at a party on friday night. it hurt. i got really upset. and i’ve decided i DONT want to be bothered by it ! )

but ANYWAY.

 i’m on abit of a mission. I’ve decided (partially after all you lot were telling me to focus on ME for a while) that that is what i’ll do. make ME better. make ME happy. and get my life on the track i want it to be on!

Being on BuddySlim is keeping my focus away from my friends/harry. (being on facebook means i start thinking about everything again)

so in the craziest way ever … BUDDYSLIM IS THE NEW FACEBOOK!

My Goals at the moment:

- work hard in school. i have 4 months till i leave and head towards uni. i want AAA in my A levels.
- get thinner. i want to knock off a stone before i go on holiday in the summer.
- work hard to work things out with my friends. and to allow myself to be in a better place mentally

Love to you all

xxx

If you didnt read my last post “: ( ” then basically it was about my boyfriend of like a year and a half breaking up with me last monday and last week being the worst week possibly in my entire life.

 BUT …

 things are looking up today as far as things with Harry and I are, its abit better.. we’re talking as friends and its feeling a teeny bit easier. Tomorrow no doubt things will seem different.. every day im up and down at the moment but for today im reasonably happy

 On the weightloss front things only just stayed the same last week… its a miracle i didn’t gain about 5lbs with lack of enthusiasm for looking after myself… but the break-up has shown me a new chapter in my life has begun, so im gonna take the bull by the horns and work hard, remembering that in a few months time i’m leaving school forever to go to Uni and having a holiday with my girlies, which means i must get in shape before then!!

 At least i have some decent motivation!! and as much as i never want to be in a relationship EVER AGAIN at the moment i keep thinking “how will i ever get a bloke as gorgeous as this one unless i get thin??” .. well it keeps me motivated anyway!!

Keep smiling buddies

K x

My beloved boyfriend who i’ve been with  for about a year and a half called our relationship off yesterday sorry this isn’t very uplifting news but I just wanted to explain why I’ve lost a huge chunk of enthusiasm at the moment. I didn’t resort to too much chocolate or anything last night whch was abit of a miracle, i did have a couple of chunks before bed though. Overall i just cant really face anything right now.

Hey Everyone .. and Happy New Year!

I’ve only just got my net fixed after it being broken for just about forever… ! I’ve gone with the usual new years resolution this year.. lose weight! as always huh.

I decided to set down my reasons for getting back on the post-christmas “oh hell, i ate too much.. time to sort my life out!” bandwagon!

well….

2009. the year i go to university. (finally!!) can’t wait till september! I want to be fit and healthy then. so I can be confident to go and start my new life away from home.

2009. 15th May - Leavers Ball. = Dresses. I want to get a (uk size) 12 and be able to breathe! 

2009. June/July - Holiday with my girlfriends in malaga and france. BIKINI TIME! they’re all super skinny aswell.. so Im not gonna be the fat one this year!

2009. Shopping. Can i go out and choose WHATEVER i want to wear?? that’d be nice.

2009. Harry. My lovely boyfriend. I somehow find myself in a long-term relationship with the hottest guy in my sixthform college… Can i feel sexy and worthy of him? for once? please?!!! 

                 2009. Its gonna be a good’un

Friday night (tonight) : babysitting. in a house FULL of chocolate!! I will not eat anything. when i have the urge to eat something i will jump around and do 10minutes of exercise.

Saturday night: Girlie night for an 18th Birthday. LOTS of alcohol and chinese food. I will heavily moderate the amount of chinese i eat. if possible i will avoid it all together. I might eat before i go so that i can drink the calories without eating the fat.

Sunday: My grandparents Golden Wedding Anniversary Party. I get to see all my cousins but the outfit i’ve chosen to buy - the top is fine. but the trousers are too tight. WAY too tight.

THEREFORE. if i slip this weekend. I will make the whole thing 10 times worse!!

Here i go…. (tonights the easiest one!!)

xxx

Nothing too exciting to report today. I’ve had a pretty normal day. Slipped up by trying some flap-jack type stuff in my food class today.. but thats all

Didn’t get my exercise in .. but im at guides tonight so i’m gonna do some running round with them no doubt. I hope it isnt tonight that we’re doing the christmas cakes……

Have a great day now y’all!

x

(Driving test was lame. re-booked for about 3 weeks time!)  aaaaaaaanyway. I was out last night at a bonfire party.. fireworks etc. it was really nice! Had a few too many drinks but all my mixers were diet ;) but after staying at my friends house last night i got up this morning (early because she was off to London for the weekend) i got home about 8.30am and went to go for a shower… however i put on foot into the shower.. and then thought “actually why dont I do some aerobics before my shower and before breakfast?” DON’T KNOW WHERE THAT CAME FROM! but i went and did 30mins aeobics infront of the tv THEN had my shower and cereal for breakfast. Im now about to have some lunch (Ham/Salad sandwich and low fat crisps.. “chips” to you americans + a banana) then im off shopping (lots of walking!) to get an outfit for my Grandparents Golden Wedding anniversary party and a birthday pressie for one of my friends

 Then im off to have a hair cut.

Lovely

Hope you’re all having a great day :)))xxxxxx